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綾乃 ―pudding thief
the month has been crazy as of late, but as crazy as it is here at the new branch, all is well. i am constantly busy (and on days that i am not, i make myself busy) and i am so so tired but it's all so rewarding when it comes to work~

but this post is not about work, nor my personal life. lately ive felt so irritable and my brain feels like it's stagnant. as if there is no new input, and i just cant deal with it. i need it to constantly be thinking and learning and taking in as much information as it possibly can when i am active (or even send me related dreams while i am asleep). so ive taken an interest in reading the daily crime news from different countries (mainly japan) every now and then since late last year and yesterday i found and interesting read about a woman who went missing. her skeleton was found a year later i believe, in a forest. it got be curious and i started wondering how fast a human body decomposes. so i googled, and found this nifty little article regarding Body Farms and eventually, a fiction book of the same topic. (the article was really interesting, you guys should take a look :O )

anyway how does that relate to this post you ask? well, ive been working on a big life-project lately and this incident hit me like a book (it literally did, a kid threw a book at me yesterday u_u) and that is to keep my brain alive. and how do i do that? by learning. ive decided that each month, i should will myself to study or read up about a certain topic, then, with all my findings i'll document them on one of the files that i have nicely stashed on my writing shelves for future references if i need any (and believe me, i'll definitely need them). this month im reading up on 'Body Farms' as much as i can (it's REALLY interesting) but next month and the following ones... i have no idea!!

help me, flist, drop me random topics in the comments if you can so that i can have different things to read up on each month! it can be totally at random from Alcohol mixing, to Resin crafting, to even the many many MANY aircrafts and ships that have been swallowed up by the Bermuda Triangle!

wow this post got long. uh, bye!
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綾乃 ―pudding thief
28 March 2014 @ 11:28 pm
im falling so far down again, i dont know what to do 
綾乃 ―pudding thief
27 March 2014 @ 06:50 pm
days like these, i thank god for subaru's existence. i have a nervous breakdown, i listen to everything i can try to on my playlist and nothing works. then i remember, hidden somewhere i do have one or two of his songs on my phone and i give those a listen and i literally feel my frustrations, my anxiety and thoughts just... disappear.

it's something i can't explain. like magic. shibutani subaru's voice is like a calm spell.
綾乃 ―pudding thief
05 March 2014 @ 01:57 pm

this week, something truly marvelous has happened! it's just something small, something that i happened to remember staring at -a drawing, if you must (no, not the one above). then came a thought, and following that, a question.

then, inspiration.

but not the kind of inspiration that is driven by mere fic-ideas, no. this is... something much bigger. you know that feeling when you just know that it's something more than just normal? something that -if a lot of effort is put into- will hopefully become that one thing youve worked pretty much all your life for? exactly, that feeling. the feeling of finally getting a sledgehammer and taking that first hit on a wall that's probably been there all your life. i'm so so pumped right now that i just, literally cannot contain it! and i have a good friend that can help me with this, and with her first input, i think i can finally take that next step.

honestly, literally can't wait to meet her later this month and tell her my plans. she was the only one who ever believed in my dream anyway.

that, 'aya will one day, write a book. she'll never give up.'
綾乃 ―pudding thief
18 February 2014 @ 09:37 pm

to anyone and everyone that remembered and sent me messages, thank you so much! it means a lot that ya'll did (:

i am alive, and well and though it's all just starting from here on, i'll take everything head on. to everyone that has stuck with me this long, i thank you -for both sticking with me, and for the times to come. for sharing a part of my burden, my pain, my laughter, my sadness, for just being in my life.

Love, Aya <3
綾乃 ―pudding thief
16 January 2014 @ 09:52 pm
aya is alive, that's a surprise! i was going to post, then i got lazy. so ask me stuff so i can post things about my boring life so far :9